| This semester I've been learning a lot about grace. Trying to take one day at a time, not looking too far into the future or get overwhelmed by responsibilities, thoughts, assignments, applications, and relationships has always been a struggle for me and at this point there is so much on my mind, so many things that need to get done that sometimes I just don't even know what to do with myself. However, instead of spazzing and breaking down, God has really granted me peace, hope and even joy. Being surrounded by beautiful, caring, ridiculous housemates and friends has reminded me that ultimately this life is not about accomplishments, status, and fitting into a certain mold. It's always at those moments where I feel like I am on the breaking point, that God places someone in my path, or a prayer in my heart that pulls me though. Like when I am agonizing about physics and how I feel so stupid because I don' t understand any of the concepts, I see Sanghee in the learning center and we sit there for an hour giggling about how our lives are too busy and as usual, making our seemingly desperate situations into a comedy. Or when I found out that I have to take huge daily doses of ibuprofen and do physical therapy for my busted shoulder, I run into gk in the kitchen where we try to open a childproof bottle of advil and embarassingly, cannot do it which leads to a heated yelling match about who is more immature. That and whenever I hear the song "ayo technology" on my ipod i picture jenna saying "fitty cent" in that dull dragging way that sounds so much like when 50 cent says it that I can't stop myself from laughing, even when I am walking by myself to class and look like a giggling fool. Oh yeah, and whenever I hear the aRise song or dance like crazy by myself in my room I picture Sam trying to copy Kaba Modern's "sensual seduction" dance- no explanation needed. Yeah so this entry is really random and disorganized. Just like my brain and my thoughts. 
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